bad day or something...

Posted by heatherb on June 14, 2000 at 09:32:10:

Hi
I just have the need to post because I am having a really bad day, depressed, crying.
I really don't know what's wrong with me but I can't stand it. I woke up, and just the thought of getting up, and getting dressed made me suddenly sad, and I sat up in bed, and started crying. I got up, got dressed... had to start working on a web project, and just sat in front of my computer crying...

I have no motivation to get up every day. I can think of TONS of things that I *SHOULD* be happy about, but I'm just not.

Lately I was finally feeling OK, not hating myself... but now I'm feeling it all come back again. I hate myself. I can't stand the way I get so depressed for no obvious reason at all.

I am not happy. And I want to be happy. I feel completely helpless and lost.

heatherb

Follow Ups:

• Oh, if only we could be our own Morpheuses. NT Julian 02:39:28 06/15/00 (4)
  • Is this the same,"Life is hell..." Julian, ( short text enclosed) Morpheus 14:33:18 06/15/00 (0)
  • Believe me, I know how you feel!There are days when I would like to do nothing more than to have sex with myself; then,possibly,replicate me...unfortunately, due to anatomically incorrect parts , this is not feasible....makes me want to cry!!! (nt) Morpheus 14:18:07 06/15/00 (2)
    • Re: with your head already up your butt headway has been made. get the dinker in there . butthole birth ob-gyn 23:49:47 06/20/00 (1)
      • Not bad. On a scale of 10, that would definitely garner a 6...congrats! Morpheus 15:50:22 06/21/00 (0)
• You have two things that the majority of the world is lacking in great measure: Intelligence and sensitivity....start using them in a CREATIVE rather than a DESTRUCTIVE way! I`ve read your posts...you are a fascinating creature; don`t denigrate yourself. (nt) Morpheus 15:44:27 06/14/00 (6)
  • ...gasp!... heatherb 16:03:28 06/14/00 (5)
    • Re: I have had some recent conflicts with my boyfriend. He finds it hard; he's never dealt with such a sensitive person before -(& boy do I feel defective when he tells me this) Get used to it, it never goes away - but it can be channelled in more fullfilling & less painful ways...n/t Summer 10:49:53 06/18/00 (4)
      • It is not that nobody cares about your personal predicament ,Summer...it is just in this case i.e. "macho-guy adolescent"...YOU have to have the intellect and chutzpah to figure out how much rank shit to eat and when to cut the bait...(nt) Morpheus/Abbey 14:08:20 06/20/00 (3)
        • Re: What ARE you talking about? I don't have a personal predicament...I was just sharing..SHEEESHHH. And I'm afraid you've completely misinterpreted me. n/t Summer 22:00:23 06/22/00 (2)
          • Reread your post...that sounds like a rock and a hard place to me..somewhere between a minor predicament and a major dilemma.But let us not quibble over semantics. Biff 15:24:04 06/26/00 (1)
            • Re: In a nutshell, I'm just saying that he sometimes find me extremely sensitive. And sometimes I have learned to take things personally. And sometimes he has learned it is good to be more sensitive. That's about all I was saying. Other than, it's hard to change what you are....So, not really between a rock & hard place afterall....n/t Summer 21:33:16 06/26/00 (0)

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