Posted by Huck (formally known as Daniel) on January 31, 2002 at 11:48:12:
Yesterday I was sitting in my room in the hospital and I was hearing a child outside crying out loudly. It sounded like "Love your ma / until the end" and somehow I liked it. Today I sat around in a bar and wrote the following little poem:
sitting in some cheap place
feeling like I've always been here
music makes me feel so gone
something's standing still
I'm blown into a face
so scrape me off like a paper
a paper on your shoes
just scrape me off like paper
paper on your shoes
feeling left over and self-forgotten
letting go of self for no better reason
nothing's mine here but my ears
and the TV show next room
I'm standing still within a mace
scrape me off like old grind
like useless grind on healed wounds
just scrape me off and ignore
the old grind on remembered youth
As I was considering what I had written and what I had heard I heard the child scream "hat" again which doesn't have a big value ... but at least as much value as a certain headscarf! I just love these little two symbols because I've had such a peaceful and accomodating impression of them once. Anyway, good luck you two. And please take care of yourself and if you can get rid of your suicidal tendencies. Hope I was able to at least name the problem for arguments are pretty much useless here.
Hospital news ...
It's quite interesting and sometimes almost funny how things got together there again. In the hospital (a psychiatry where I'm under treatment because of my damn suicidal tendency) there are a bunch of people that are quite interesting. A young woman with the name Conny that is hurting herself all the time (scratching up until she bleeds on knuckles and chin and leg), an elder woman looking pretty much like someone that has terrible depressions, an elder drinker looking much like Mr. Voyager that had gotten drunk yesterday and therefor got thrown out and more of that. An elder woman with the name Gina that is pretty nervous but alright and gratitious but sorrily not so easy to bear for she's talking all the time. ........... it's an endless thing. The nurses and medical assistant are a chapter for themselves again, I think I'll have to make a picture of them just to show your their faces ... guess you'll have a good laugh ... if you can laugh about it.
Greetings
Daniel the kid