Posted by Flower Pagan (68.35.114.160) on November 27, 2002 at 03:24:25:
In Reply to: BOY YOU HIT DE NAIL ON DE HEAD posted by Bartholomew (63.214.72.156) on November 26, 2002 at 21:48:30:
When she was working as a moderator, you criticized her and if she doesn't work as a moderator, you criticized her. What do you want from her?
I don't blame her for not wasting her time being a moderator. I think getting more college education is more productive and practical and more than likely will become more financially rewarding, while this website is not.
Personally, I think Emily is not fidget, but than again, I do not know Emily well enough to give a factual statement. So, could you give me some insight to why you say Emily is fidget and uneasy with her life, unless she is doing something productive? What facts and evidence do you based your statements upon? Or are you attacking her for the hell of it?
Does her moving forward and making a life for herself in a practical sense bother you? I know I am planning on going back to school and study more computer courses and hope to make a lot of money like my boyfriend does, maybe not as much since I am not willing to take up Calculus and Trig! I think Emily is smart to make practical use of her energy, whether she is fidget or not.
Are you describing her to be a 7? Do you think she is that restless and trying to escape the present with the future or distractions? Do you really believe she look outwardly to comfort herself? I thought she was a 4, isn't she?
Why do you want her to just sit and do nothing? I don't understand.
I am trying to understand why are you describing Emily like this. I am trying to understand the logic of the whole thing. Is it something that you read in her journal? I am curious. Is it the openness of sharing her journal and personal life with others bothers you, like it does Ryan? Perhaps, some people want to share their lives with others. Looking at other people's lives has became very popular within the last 3 years, since Big Brother or that other show came on. Now, you find countless reality shows on TV now because people enjoy sharing their lives, while others enjoy watching or reading about other people's lives (biographies, autobiographies and documentaries). If she is a 4, she probably wants to be understood by sharing who she is, who knows.
I don't know much about journal sites, except they can keep journals online. I have considered keeping one on Oprah, but I know I will do it once or twice and forget about it. I keep a journal at home. Maybe, I will check it out and see what it is about for myself for a change.
You say I won't get it. Well, people who knows me, knows that I am not into guessing games and reading between the line. I rather for people to take the responsibility for themselves to communicate what they want me to know. I have told people, "if you don't tell me, I don't know". It is not my responsibility to try to figure out what people are trying to say. I have learned to stop doing that talking in riddles thing after someone got on my case about it and made me talk straight to her. I appreciate her helping me to over come my insecurities and just say it. I am thankful that she cared enough about me to free me, now I am more blunt than she was. LOL
I don't mind playing your games to figure out your riddles because they are interesting sometimes, but it is not my responsibility to get it when you can bring in clarity if you are not afraid to say what you want to say. Remeber, I don't claim to be a mind reader or into literature of trying to interpret what the writer is trying to convey. That is not my area of interests. My paintings are not abstract to where people have to try to figure it out. There is nothing wrong with those things, but it is not my style of creative thinking. I prefer people to know exactly what I am saying to them or trying to convey to them without a misunderstanding.
People who reads into what I say, I let them know there is nothing to read into because I thought I was being pretty direct and to the point in my speech. YOu can say, I am sort of a very mild and unprofessionally trained version of Dr. Phil (Dr. Philip McGraw Ph.d). Check him out.
Try out the authentic test and see how you rate on authenticity.
Flower Pagan
Flowers for Emily on graduation day!
> THAT SAYING JUS MAKES A LOTTA SENSE 2 ME. HE HE! FEEL SOMEHOW CORRECT YKNOW? TOO BAD I DUN THINK MOST PPL WILL GET IT SPECILLY NOT FLOWERPAGAN
> HE HE COULD THIS BE ANOTHER TEST? BOY JUST LIKE THE GRICK TEST THAT THIS GIVE THE ANSWER TO
> > Here's a guy on a bench. He's waiting for something. He has a page from a newspaper--he borrowed it from his neighbor. Important world news! The guy feels substantial! Useful work, he feels! The neighbor leaves and takes the page with her.
> > The guy on the bench is uncomfortable. He fidgets. He picks up a travel brochure to a place he doesn't want to go to and reads it uneasily. In another world, he plays tictactoe against himself. Why doesn't he just sit?
> > He gotta do something, dummy. And it bugs him on an instinctive level that there's nothing solid to do. This guy is Emily. But Emily's online and the easiest thing to fidget with is fingers on a keyboard. Fidget that way = talk about people. Anything but focus on the present--that's uncomfortable. Reach out to other people, other places. Doesn't quite help all the way, but better than total uneasiness. Emily's been pushed out of herself by her uneasiness. So has the guy. Get it?
> > 1 more thing: No, now the guy's got a very solid life, the approval of his friends, success. On the bench he's not uncomfortable. He's relaxed and just sits and thinks about his life. It easy to do that. Thinking like that doesn't give him any pangs. No reason to fidget. Emily doesn't need to run out of her head for comfort; she can be centered in herself and be unconcerned with the boards.
> > HA hahahahah!
> > No, the guy can't have a solid life or he wouldn't fidget. Same with Emily. That's jus about the whole picture, buddy. Get it?
> > In a word, and as I've sed be4 GRRRICCckckcK. The center is no good, the edges fly away from it.
> > SAY THIS IS A BAD SHADE OF GREEN AND IT LOOKS EVEN WORSE WITH THE STANDARD BLUH GRAY WINDOWS COLOR THEME.