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Enneagram Type 4 Board Archive first steps and the cliffs of foreverRe: Hi fellow 4's..would love to find a way to have a CHATROOMPosted by kraig on April 06, 1998 at 05:00:25: In Reply to: Hi fellow 4's..would love to find a way to have a CHATROOM posted by Michelle on March 30, 1998 at 15:24:39: Michelle,hi. you speak to my soul-this is the first i have heard of the enneagram,interesting. i've been so long in the hills,skyclad that when i came back i resolved to take the first job in my way. this was at boot repair. not too hot. in time i started to make custom boots and now work with one of the few european master shoemakers in the country. i also fancy myself an artist, poet/music. however unlike you my girlfriend said " hide that tape or the men in white will take you away " and the stagefright anyway. i guess the point is that, sometimes if were on an indirect path it's simply ok.- why do i wait-wait no more-just stand up there is no door- ps while i have your eye, i wrote a poem no one cares to understand, i must have just been tripping. if you will would you please comment, i may see some of this 4-ism. all thanks,kraig... On bended knee Lady,i understand thy power lie beyond the touch of an ancient alter amidst a primal sea yea,thou art the placid sea and i a drop to set thy flesh aquiver circlng outward the endless wave of creation essence rise and fall of thee be true to the realm Lady,act in love,i be thine: I am a number 4, self-pres, 36 yrs old, artist/singer/writer etc. I. Just discovered the ENNEAGRAM about a yr and half ago. It has made a MAJOR impact in the way I look at myself... : Im learning to OBSERVE myself (without JUDGEMENT if possible) so that I can hopefully become an INTEGRATED 4..and healthy! : I am right now in my "hiding out from the real world" mode. I have a definite need for SAFETY. I have a boyfriend now who pays all the bills while I stay home and PAINT, CREATE...(all the artistic endeavors!) Part of me feels grateful, thankful and happy to be so safe, not having to really deal with the world..My boyfriend doesnt mind it...in his own way he believes a lot in my "ART". : On the other hand I feel a bit guilty that I am going in "the wrong direction" (as the books say!) by staying home and opting for this SAFE existence. : It just seems the way I deal with anything is to WITHDRAW....thinking I will be safe and secure that way. : I was making a living partially as a singer in Las VEgas etc. I was VERY VERY good at what I did..BUT..My personality got in the way and would sabotage myself at every turn. : I "couldve been a contenda'. HA!! I always feel that "someday, somewhere..." I WILL GET ALL THIS FIGURED OUT and then will re-emerge into the world..all HEALED and BETTTER!!!! HAHA....I know this seems totally irrational and is not the way to go!! I do feel STUCK aat times..Ive read almost every ENNEAGRAm book.. : Recently I read "ENNEAGRAM TRANSFORMATIONS"..affirmations for the number 4 are a bit helpful..but I would like more POSITIVE FEEDBACk about how to get HEALTHY! : Anyone have any suggestions""""??? THANKS! MIchelle
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