Posted by Emily on April 30, 2000 at 22:15:33:
In Reply to: Thx Alison posted by Curator on April 30, 2000 at 20:54:58:
: That was a very good observation you made, when you mentioned "being abandoned by those who really know us". I recognize it in myself, a feeling as though I am constantly shuffling through my party masks. "My friends and loved ones think I am a good person; I am truly not. Someday they will recognize me for what I am, and everyone shall then despise me." I watch these thoughts going through my head, where did they come from? It is so very difficult to grasp the source of these feelings, perhaps because I have been on the surface of my pond so long that the water beneath me has decayed and drifted away in neglect.
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What type are you? I read somewhere once that fours are scared of people "seeing" them. That's why so many are artists, because it's a way for them to show theirselves, but very indirectly.
-Emily, 4w5