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Re: Feeling threatened by others
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Posted by Ayla on April 16, 1998 at 11:05:20:
In Reply to: Feeling threatened by others posted by Devora-Leah on April 15, 1998 at 12:28:50:
Your message speaks to something I have struggled with
all of my life. No matter how many times I've heard, "You
shouldn't let them get to you," or "You take things too
personally," or "Talk to her," or "It's just part
of the game," etc. I still succumb to the nauseating
baloney others dish out. I currently work as a graphic artist for state government.
My education is in journalism, but I've never worked in the
field because I was afraid I'd be chewed up and
spit out before finishing my first story. Instead, I spit myself
out before I'd even begun. I've held editing/writing and
PR positions, even tried being a boss. But my boss was a
raving lunatic 6; a 3/8 wannabe. When I look back on
that experience, I realize I held up amazingly well. But my
staff lost faith in me, partly because he was also a
habitual lier, partly because I failed to play "the game."
In the end, the fact that I lacked even the smallest hint
of pretension did me in. I took a demotion and left. But I am loving the graphics--it gives me a creative outlet
I've never had before. The writing was so BORING (you
got that right) and PRETENTIOUS (PR? How could it not be?)
that this is a welcomed break. The only trouble is they have
me working with a bunch of techies (computer that is)
who haven't the slightest clue as to how important
image and presentation are. Isn't that an interesting paradox?
I, the unpretentious one, having to explain to them, who
are full of the game, the importance of image! Bitter? Oh no, not me. I just figure I don't belong in the
world of work, so my latest quest is to take advantage
(tongue in cheek) of my husband's success and become
a housewife! Won't that be fun?!!? Actually, I want
to stay home and do freelance. I figure it's the only
game in town for me. I'm sorry I can't give you any tips. I've failed this course
time and time again. But I do wish you well and hope
the validation does you some good. Hang in there and
buy yourself a copy of Dr. Suess' "I had trouble in getting
to Sollow Salu (sp?)." Always a favorite of mine. You
know, "Speak softly/Carry a big stick."
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