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Enneagram Type 4 Board Archive Re: Feeling threatened by othersPosted by Devora-Leah on April 19, 1998 at 15:35:15: In Reply to: Re: Feeling threatened by others posted by michelle on April 17, 1998 at 01:36:45:
: : I was always very talented since a small girl but also very sensitive and vulnerable. I was also a bit overweight so I constantly got picked on at school.IU alwasy felt different, "special" sometimes and definitely OUT OF PLACE in almost every group setting I can think of....(Unless I was the leader of some project). : The way I DEALT with all the harrasment was not too healthy. I would run and hide! LITERALLY! I used to find SAFE places like bathroom stalls where no one could GET TO ME and just sit there for aas long as possible..till it felt "SAFE" to leave. : In my adult life I see that Ive done the same thing. I used that same HIDING IN A SAFE SPOT routine for years...when I felt scared, intimidated or "different". : I was recently in a show that I starred in Las Vegas..I got the job because my TALENT MUSICALLy is exceptional..BUT..my confidence has never matched my talent! People could sense that about me i think and maybe thats why i was picked on so much. I think they felt that I was this overly talented girl, but so vulnerable and sensitive..so many 8 types would seek me out and just RUN ME RAGGED!! : i recently left showbiz (at the supposed HEIGHT of my career and making tons of money)...To make a long story short I was also married to a ONE at the time who was getting very abusive emotionally and physically. I think my personality just wasnt suitted for that sort of constant pressure from critics, audiences and co-workers..Most of whom were so much more confident than me.....Deep down I felt my talnet was definitely equal if not at times better than those CONFIDENT ones...i just didnt have the PHONINEss and THICK SKIN I guess ..... : Talk to yall later i hope ..Lets STICK TOGETHER FOURS!! : Michelle (sandij262)
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