Re: Feeling threatened by others

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: I know exactly what you mean about not having the phoniness and the skin. My husband says that my nerves are on the outside of my body instead of on the inside, so it is very, very easy for anyone to touch them. As the phoniness, as I hear you guys saying, I just don't know how to "play the game." I'm too real for all that posturing and game-playing. Even if I could figure out how to play it, I don't think I could because I'm just to honest, innocent, and genuine. Isn't it sad that these are not the qualities that help one get ahead in life? : Devora-Leah : : : : Ayla, Devorah..WOW you both sound like ME..I understand totally how you feel when You are bullied or picked on especially by the 8 and 3 personality. : : I was always very talented since a small girl but also very sensitive and vulnerable. I was also a bit overweight so I constantly got picked on at school.IU alwasy felt different, "special" sometimes and definitely OUT OF PLACE in almost every group setting I can think of....(Unless I was the leader of some project). : : The way I DEALT with all the harrasment was not too healthy. I would run and hide! LITERALLY! I used to find SAFE places like bathroom stalls where no one could GET TO ME and just sit there for aas long as possible..till it felt "SAFE" to leave. : : In my adult life I see that Ive done the same thing. I used that same HIDING IN A SAFE SPOT routine for years...when I felt scared, intimidated or "different". : : I was recently in a show that I starred in Las Vegas..I got the job because my TALENT MUSICALLy is exceptional..BUT..my confidence has never matched my talent! People could sense that about me i think and maybe thats why i was picked on so much. I think they felt that I was this overly talented girl, but so vulnerable and sensitive..so many 8 types would seek me out and just RUN ME RAGGED!! : : i recently left showbiz (at the supposed HEIGHT of my career and making tons of money)...To make a long story short I was also married to a ONE at the time who was getting very abusive emotionally and physically. I think my personality just wasnt suitted for that sort of constant pressure from critics, audiences and co-workers..Most of whom were so much more confident than me.....Deep down I felt my talnet was definitely equal if not at times better than those CONFIDENT ones...i just didnt have the PHONINEss and THICK SKIN I guess ..... : : Talk to yall later i hope ..Lets STICK TOGETHER FOURS!! : : Michelle (sandij262)

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