Posted by Emily on September 23, 2000 at 17:47:21:
I quit my job today.
As some of you know, I work in catering. For about 2.5 years I've been in it, catering people's weddings and huge sit-down business dinners every weekend. It pays well, and the hours are flexible, and I'm just sort of "used" to it, so that's why I stayed for so long...even though I hate it. The hours are horrible. Instead of getting in my 20 or 25 hours a week Monday through Friday like normal people, I'd do that on Friday and Saturday nights. 10 hour days, exhausting manual labor, grumpy co-workers...I stayed with it all because I knew how to cater, I knew how to wait tables and make a perfect batch of wedding punch.
I don't even have any money saved up, it's just that the thought of another weekend serving another party with the same problems....yuck. So, I called my boss half an hour before I was supposed to be there and told him I was quitting, and that I wouldnt be coming in today or tomorrow when I was scheduled. "I know this is selfish and it's going to leave you shorthanded, but, well...I don't know." -me
Then I hung up and went driving for a little while.
I'm tired of being in a job where nothing that I do ever matters. I know people say, "Well youre young! Jobs are supposed to suck!" but that's not enough for me anymore. I don't like having such a meaningless existence, working just for the sake of working, and blah blah blah. God I'd love to work from home...
Anyway, "impulses" is the title of this post. I've heard it's more of an ENFP thing to do something like this on impulse, on the spur of the moment, on a whim. I guess it proves that fours really do identify and act with and according to their feelings most of the time. I was feeling depressed, tired, annoyed at life and work. I was close to tears all day yesterday and today...and I just needed a change. Had I not been feeling this way, I'm sure I would have not quit. I did what my emotions were telling me to do, the moment they told me to do it. Right before I called I almost talked myself out of it...but I did it anyway.
I'm so avoidant...I'm so scared of new things, so you know it must have been a pretty strong impulse to get me to get out of routine and what I'm familiar with in order to make myself happy.
I called my friend Kelli, who has like $7430583405840583 saved up, and asked her if she's help me out this month with some of my bills so I could quit right now today. I was crying and emotional when I talked to her, even though I tried to hide it. She said she'd lend me some money, and that made me cry even more, and she told me that I know what I need to do, and that she'd help me however she could.
My mom was surprised at first, but she said that no one should have to stay in a job they hate. I told her the only I wanted from her is for her to leave me alone while I look for another job. I don't want to be nagged.
Anyway, this whole post can be summed up in two words...
Work Schmurk.
-Emily, anyone out there have a job for me?