Posted by heatherb on September 25, 2000 at 07:49:40:
In Reply to: Re: Feeling kind of stuck... posted by Susan on September 22, 2000 at 18:12:04:
Hi Susan,
You're so right... This new experience of being a mother is definitely something that will make me learn more about myself... For some reason I get caught up in the fear of the unexpected instead of seeing it as an incredible opportunity for growth and discovery...!! It's simply a bit scary... and I feel a bit lost, not knowing what I will do, how I will change, how my life is going to change... and it has triggered all my doubts about decisions I've made...
It's just that when I think about wanting to be alone, that I have sacrificed myself, that I have lost my sense of identity... I see all the things I've given up, and I become negative about what I have around me... But, just like you said, I know that if I *were* alone, I'd be sitting around all depressed wanting to find my soul-mate, and dreaming of getting married, of having a baby...! I really must see all the good things around me, and not dwell on the negative... Because right now I actually DO have all the things I have dreamed about...!
Everything you said helped me :)
You helped me see that I *am* on the right track, and that I don't need to torture myself...!
Thanks again :)
heatherb