Posted by heatherb on September 25, 2000 at 08:15:19:
In Reply to: Re: Feeling kind of stuck... posted by Emily on September 23, 2000 at 17:50:08:
: : I use to be such a loner, always on my own, independent, and not needing anyone... And all of this has changed in the past 3 years... I have gone with the flow, accepting my emotions and following my heart... But there is that part of me still that just wants to be alone.
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: That last part really got to me. "Just wanting to be alone".
: That has to do with wanting to withdraw to figure out your emotions...
: Whenever anything bad happens, or anything GOOD, for that matter, the most natural thing that I want to do is go somewhere quiet where I can be alone to deal with my emotions. I just want to be alone.
: I think your last sentence ties in with your whole post. Your confused on what you should do now, where you should go from here, and your natural response to all that is to just run away and hide for a little while to figure out what the hell is going on. I don't know how many time's i've thought that to myself...I just want to be alone.
: -Emily, introvert
Hi Emily,
It's true... I need my alone time SO MUCH. It's the only way to figure out my emotions... And it's amazing because it really is my natural response to run away and hide from it all!!! It's exactly that. BUT, I simply CAN'T, and that is the hardest part to come to terms with... Because there was a time when I could, and god knows how many times I did.... But now it's all different.
But different doesn't necessarily mean BAD, and that's what I have to realize and understand. Especially knowing that every step I have taken in my life has led me here, it's been a natural progression, and I have been lucky in so many ways..! But it doesn't change the fact that I get scared very easily and hit the panic button... And I really DO just want to start running, literally, and get away.
heatherb