Re: To Ayla and Devorah

Posted by Ayla on April 22, 1998 at 10:28:16:

In Reply to: To Ayla and Devorah posted by Michelle on April 21, 1998 at 17:34:42:

Hi Michelle...I understand what you're saying about moving
toward the positives of "oneness." But I will need to learn more
about the positive qualities of one--they are a bit foreign to
me. Interestingly enough, for me it wasn't until I moved away
from the negative oneness that I began to lighten up on myself.
For years and years I have forced myself to be organized, to
keep lists, to be prompt, to be as my one-to-the-max mother
would have me be. It nearly killed me. I've gone so far the other
way now that it's a wonder I ever get up in the morning!
Just kidding, but I am much more relaxed now and much easier on
myself and others. My Myers-Briggs "J" has even changed to a strong
"P."

I have some healthy (I think) 2 and 9 stuff going on that
I can hopefully draw on...my one role model was so negative
that finding healthy oneness is going to be a challenge for me.
Maybe more than I can deal with right now.

About the ordinary pleasures and pains...I think my pleasures are
very ordinary, and since they've become so life is much sweeter.
Being really aware of the change in seasons, breathing them in,
can be exillerating! Waiting for my flowers to bloom, or checking
each day for last year's plants to break through the ground again...
or knowing my two cats will be on top of me in the morning mewing
for their breakfasts...those things are often the highlight of my day.
And I wouldn't have it any differently. I've been down that dramatic
road and those pleasures are fleeting. I like the stuff I can count on.

Good luck with your business...and keep us informed, I have
dreams of starting a home business too...computer graphics,
writing, web pages and the like. That marketing aspect is the
one that worries me too! But it sounds like you've made a
terrific start and I admire you for it!

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• Re: To Ayla michelle 11:47:38 4/22/98 (2)
  • Re: to Ayla and Michelle Devora-Leah 19:00:48 4/22/98 (1)
    • Re: to Ayla and Michelle Michelle 12:34:35 4/23/98 (0)

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