Posted by Margaret on October 28, 2000 at 14:06:36:
I have a huge problem
I think I fell hard for a 6 recently - in other words - I now got myself in HUGE DEEP TROUBLE.
He hates me.
He called me a punk and now will never trust nor speak to me again.
I dont even know what happened.
From my end I'm innocent.
I didn't even do anything - (except get 'curious' maybe).
Okay - well - at least I didn't mean to do anything.
But anyway - now that I did everything that I did - how do I get him to calm down now?
I don't want him to keep getting all upset about this whole thing - I mean at least from what I think- I don't even think any of this is even that big of a deal in the first place - because I'm not even going to do anything - I never was - so why is he so mad at me still anyway?
I'm starting to get sick to my stomach now.
He's such a good innocent sweet person.
He never deserved anything of anything I ever did ever.
But it's too late, and now he wants something back for it - but that something is something I don't have - so how do I get a six to calm down?
He is TJ - I am FP - maybe that is a huge problem too.
I wish I did not always get myself stuck in all these problems. I need to get out of this somehow.
My biggest problem is that I am a sucker for very strong, steady, sturdy, reliable, gentle, loving, sweetheart darling, very masculine men with lots of testosterone.
I'm going to regret writing this.
Sh*t.