Posted by Emily on October 28, 2000 at 18:13:52:
In Reply to: I feel horrible and guilty and sick to my stomach now ! I can't stop this feeling! posted by margaret on October 28, 2000 at 16:16:09:
(repost)
...have you noticed a pattern in yourself regarding this board and your posts on it? You always say something, make some sort of negative comment, which
you later (later, as in 5 or 10 minutes) apologize for your words, and say you're not feeling well, and that youre under a lot of stress and etc. Then, the person
forgives you, and you repost again telling how you are "so stupid" and should learn to control your outbursts. It happens almost everytime you come on the
board...almost every post of yours!
I was wondering if this is how you are in person. Do you say mean things to people, and then right away take it back and say you're sorry for offending them?
And then...repeat the process again the very same day?! It goes against some sort of rationale, I think. If you do something once, and you say you have
learned from it and see that you should stop, then why do you keep doing it? Every time!
I don't mean for this to be a mean post, and I don't mean to hurt your feelings, I'm just wondering if you observe and notice this behavior in you, and if you
know why you do it.
-Emily, wondering