Re: Roller-coaster ride....ps

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: : : Greetings fourdom :) : : : As the title suggests - I'm on a roller-coaster ride....one day I'm on top of the world - the next I'm down in a pit of fetid dingoes droppings! : : : All this 'emotion' stuff is still so new to me, I'm having a devil of a time trying to work it all out. The people around me keep telling me to 'go with the flow' - but it feels more like 'riding the waves' in the middle of the ocean during a hurricane! : : : There's got to be a better way! : : : Amanda : : ps....I've had all sorts of trouble with my email - so I've got a new address....feel free to email me anytime - everyone! : : mckenna_amanda@hotmail.com : : smiles and frowns (depending on when you catch me) : : Amanda :( :) (God I'm such a 4!!!!) : There are other ways, but I'm not sure they're any better. I went through a similar roller-coaster ride a bit over a year ago after some very painful events in my life. I actually described it as more of a see-saw because my moods could swing wildly every few hours or even minutes. : The typical other way is to just shut it all off and ignore it--very non-4, and not a good way to deal with it, IMO. Looking back, it was an incredibly painful time for me, but I wouldn't trade that ability to feel for anything. Most important of all is the awareness of the feelings--to explore them and not just know that you're in pain, but to watch the pain and know it intimately. To know how it feels, what causes it, where it comes from. To let it in and befriend it rather than to see it as an enemy that needs to be shut out. : Your friends who tell you to "go with the flow" may not be all that far off the mark. To me, this doesn't mean to just push the feelings aside and move along, but to allow them to come when they do, and let them go when they choose to leave. I've found that I have some degree of choice in how I perceive my feelings, but I can't arbitrarily choose how I feel. I've never been able to "choose my moods" as many people suggest is possible. The feelings are just there for me; my choice is to try to welcome them, and through this welcoming and acceptance, understand them. : - Hal -

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