making me my self

Posted by no. 4 aristocrat on November 22, 2000 at 19:30:48:

I’ve spent a lot of time trying to know myself and now that I do I wish I hadn’t tried so hard. This typology has me pegged as “romantic.” That agreed with me at first. Recognizing myself united me, made me feel whole and right again.
Then I realized I could no longer be romantic. Knowing my actions forced me to manipulate them. My feelings are now funny things -- a product of mechanical me. When I turn inwards, when I despair and sadden, I am simply chanced to be a personality number four. The feelings themselves have no significance, only why I have been their channel. And “I” becomes a body of chemicals and instincts, of environment and circumstance and that is all. I am safe for knowing myself; I can never be bad. My perversions are not my own; they are the “romantic’s”. My abnormalities can be addressed. I am you and you are me and we unite by being nothing.

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