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Posted by 2mama on December 01, 2000 at 23:37:36:

In Reply to: Re: I just cut a shadow 4 friend out of my life... posted by Nihilist on December 01, 2000 at 20:32:23:

Dear Nihilist, thanks for your comments. I'm not even sure why I'm doing this catharsis thing anymore; it may be nothing more now than a desire to scream about the last 10 years of first strong and then fading connection with the ex-friend and really be heard. I'm the extreme INFP type, and work as a medical/psychological clairvoyant and spiritual healer. No Madam Palm shit. It's the real deal. I'm constantly in a state of service; giving without any thought of receiving. This is life breath to me. Not trying to sound like an arrogant self-proclaimed holy smartass; that's just how it is. While it's deeply satisfying on a spiritual level, my INFP nature contributes, in my belief, to my unhealthy ability/tendency to tolerate crap long past the point where most folks would've run off screaming a long time before. So here's this profoundly wounded woman, which in itself was an attractor originally. I no longer look for compatible wound-based friendships, but people in search of same are still drawn to me. Believe me, I don't have anything against 4s and certainly don't think that most 4s even remotely fall into the sickness level of my ex-friend. She's on a far end of the statistical spectrum. Yes, she would have been far better served by getting off her narcicissm and demonstrating some compassion to others. I tried to get her off her ass in the that regard, with no luck. There's not really much more I can say about this saga. Your words helped me see how desperately I needed to let it all out. Yep, I'm the way-typical 2. Listen, listen, listen, suggest, listen some more, repeat the process, ad nauseam, and then ARRRGHHH, a final threshold is crossed and seemingly gentle me can rip someone a new asshole or simply shut off. I also got how I needed to express publicly, albeit anonymously, just how profoundly sick this gut-feeding, self-obsessed, drama queen self-sabotoguing rageaholic woman is. Beware the New Age Lecture circuit (no offense intended.) Really sick 4s thrive there as lecturers and guru wannabes. This gal is one of them. In closing, I have to say that I really have to look at myself for tolerating this shit for so long, and that YES, IT WAS REALLY THAT BAD. If you knew her you well may have done exactly the same thing I did...cut it off cold. There are times, and from my heart I believe this is one of them, that there is simply no other choice. You gotta save your own sanity.

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: Dear Nihilist, thanks for your comments. I'm not even sure why I'm doing this catharsis thing anymore; it may be nothing more now than a desire to scream about the last 10 years of first strong and then fading connection with the ex-friend and really be heard. I'm the extreme INFP type, and work as a medical/psychological clairvoyant and spiritual healer. No Madam Palm shit. It's the real deal. I'm constantly in a state of service; giving without any thought of receiving. This is life breath to me. Not trying to sound like an arrogant self-proclaimed holy smartass; that's just how it is. While it's deeply satisfying on a spiritual level, my INFP nature contributes, in my belief, to my unhealthy ability/tendency to tolerate crap long past the point where most folks would've run off screaming a long time before. So here's this profoundly wounded woman, which in itself was an attractor originally. I no longer look for compatible wound-based friendships, but people in search of same are still drawn to me. Believe me, I don't have anything against 4s and certainly don't think that most 4s even remotely fall into the sickness level of my ex-friend. She's on a far end of the statistical spectrum. Yes, she would have been far better served by getting off her narcicissm and demonstrating some compassion to others. I tried to get her off her ass in the that regard, with no luck. There's not really much more I can say about this saga. Your words helped me see how desperately I needed to let it all out. Yep, I'm the way-typical 2. Listen, listen, listen, suggest, listen some more, repeat the process, ad nauseam, and then ARRRGHHH, a final threshold is crossed and seemingly gentle me can rip someone a new asshole or simply shut off. I also got how I needed to express publicly, albeit anonymously, just how profoundly sick this gut-feeding, self-obsessed, drama queen self-sabotoguing rageaholic woman is. Beware the New Age Lecture circuit (no offense intended.) Really sick 4s thrive there as lecturers and guru wannabes. This gal is one of them. In closing, I have to say that I really have to look at myself for tolerating this shit for so long, and that YES, IT WAS REALLY THAT BAD. If you knew her you well may have done exactly the same thing I did...cut it off cold. There are times, and from my heart I believe this is one of them, that there is simply no other choice. You gotta save your own sanity. : /

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