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Enneagram Type 4 Board Archive Re: Various meanderings through the internal life....Posted by Cecil on September 11, 1999 at 21:23:56: In Reply to: Various meanderings through the internal life.... posted by PseudoName on September 11, 1999 at 16:05:59: : Hello all... : How goes it? : Re - sensitivity to criticism and honesty. I think it is precisely because, fours are so extremely self-critical, that things on the outside 'scrape' so harshly. : I find I go through cycles of feeling very strong and very weak, that are of course reflected in the outer world ( as within, so without, yada yada yada). There is never any in between. I'm not talking about a manic/depressive state, but rather of cycles of renewal and depletion... The first time in my adult life, that I hit a weak period, terrified me. I still don't like it, but I am slowly learning to come to an accomodation with myself and the cycles of my life/being.... I find though, that when I am weak, I fall to the threeish side. When strong, I definitely go to one. : Strength, as I define it? Resilience. Compassion. Truth. The outward life renewed by what is within. A phrase hit me right between the eyes, a few months ago, "Pick your battles". Sun Tzu, I believe. : Connection... I want it, I don't want it. I love beginnings, get bored in the middle, and can't wait to leave at the end... love does not seem to have any effect on this process, only the intensity of it. This holds true in almost all my relationships, platonic or non. How is it with the rest of fourdom, to borrow a phrase from Amanda. I have a question. Do you and DEECEE have something going on? Seems like you two got something going there. If so, congratulations. You two make a good couple. Your sense of values and morality seem to match. Cecil
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