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Enneagram Type 4 Board Archive RagePosted by Tiggy - feeling very Rachel. on September 12, 1999 at 17:38:30: I experience rage. I always had what they called a bad temper as a child, but I put this down to being unhappy and having the courage to stand up to my adoptive father who was very aggressive and would knock me about sometims. My sisters didn't get hit because they were more submissive and cowed down when he shouted at them, whereas I stood up for myself - I had a strong sense of children's rights and still have. I reckon I had a lot of anger knocked out of me, because for most of my life I have been depressed and often allowed myself to become a doormat. Recently I have been much happier, but have started to have fairly sudden rages that escalate out of all proportion to the cause and usually end in lots of tears. a blood test showed up a hormone imbalance - too much testosterone. Though I usually confine these to my family, this weekend I threw a glass across the room at the college I'm attached to for a distance learning teacher-training course. Being a Catholic college they were in a state of shock. Now they won't let me carry on my School placement because they reckon I'm mentally ill or something. Please write to me because I'm really depressed; I love being in school and feel less stressed there than sitting at home all the time by myself. Please help me - I'm sorry if I got confused with the messages and I'm sorry if I upset Cecil. I really do think Fours have a hard time in our society - there doesn't seem to be that much of a role for them. We have no priestesses, as Jung would say. This could mean I can't teach and I've wanted to do that since I was little.
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