You mean I'm part of the masses? =oO

Posted by Cory on September 13, 1999 at 22:45:07:

In Reply to: Re: You've been asked this question before... posted by Ev on September 13, 1999 at 17:36:33:

[Ev]: Aha, the proverbial question of the ages; What do I want to be when I grow up? Interesting dilemma you've found yourself in Corey. You can safely consider yourself a part of the unwashed masses because about 90+% of us can't figure out what we want to be either. Have you ever wondered why adults are always asking kids what they want to be when they grow up? THEY'RE LOOKING FOR IDEAS THEMSELVES!

[Cory] - No! Don't tell me that! I need to seperate the gap of Me and Them even further! Well, I guess you're right on this. I just feel I have less options than anybody else, since I don't "fit in" with everybody else really well.

[Ev]: Since you like philosophy maybe you should consider college with possibly teaching as a career option. The one thing I AM sure of is that someone just starting out nowadays NEEDS a college education. It's the equivalent of the high school education that my generation had to have. (I'm 44.) Will your parents help you with college funding? Are you a good enough student to make it? Do you want to? Tons of questions that only you can answer. The future may even seem overwhelming to someone just graduating high school. Is this the case for you? What do you *really* want to do?

[Cory] - Well, here's the thing. I'm not a fan of academia. My education (well, what I find as important education) has been self-taught, at my own pace, and what I wanted. I did ok in school...I would've done much better, had I actually paid attention in class (instead of daydreaming and creating and drawing), but I did fail algebra three times so I'm rather low on math credits. To go to a regular 4 year college, I'm most likely going to have to go through community college and get those math credits made up...but I don't WANT that! Two years of horrible, boring math? It seems to me that might make my depression even worse. As well, I see college as one of the ultimate social institutions: conformity at its finest. I really doubt I could discover myself more there, or even extract happiness, instead become just another cog in society's machine. Often at times I dream of just traveling around the USA, not knowing where to go, just letting my intuition guide me. Other times, when my depression strangles me, I think suicide might be a way out...seeing that I truly feel there is no exit from this prison. But to answer your questions...
-Yes my parents will help me with funding
-I am an adequate student...I just need the math credits
-And whether I want to go or not...yes and no. I already gave my reasons for no, but college seems like the only escape from my current situation. Plus I have heard stories (most likely fictional) that you Will find people in college to relate to. I'm not looking forward to frat parties and all that shallow animal pleasure they do, but I'm also not looking forward to long term papers on the relevance of Thoreau in modern society, or some complex subject like that.

I don't know...maybe the world was meant as a suffering ground.

-Cory

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• Re: You mean I'm part of the masses? =oO Tiggy 23:56:07 9/13/99 (0)
• Re: You mean I'm part of the masses? =oO Ev 23:18:16 9/13/99 (0)

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