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Re: FOUR: Escaping the Relentless Despair??-TO CHARLIE

Re: FOUR: Escaping the Relentless Despair??-TO CHARLIE


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Posted by jess on May 25, 1998 at 10:37:51:

In Reply to: Re: FOUR: Escaping the Relentless Despair?? posted by charlie on May 24, 1998 at 03:43:28:


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: dear Jess,there are only 2 things I can think of straight off- have you also tried medication? it helps me FEEL more able to cope,I'm sure...the difference between dragging yourself out of bed every morning, and bouncing out of bed every morning.Fours are generally "endogenous" depressives, and therefore often most responsive to medication.It may be all you need.Intellectually, you are probably right to see life as "meaningless", stuffed,etc.For me, the only way round this problem is to indulge(what I would say is naturally FOURS')a Black Sense of Humour. Maybe other fours out there have suggestions for how best to do that...on the movies page here on this site is a long analysis of Jane Campion's "the Piano"...but Jane Campion's OTHER side, the Black Humour thing, can be seen in all its magnificence in "Sweetie", an earlier film of hers. all the best...

Dear Charlie...Yes, I have recently tried medication..one of the reasons I posted this, because I resisted doing that for so long, finally gave it a shot, and that doesn't seem to be working....well, perhaps does help, I am really not sure...been going through some ups and downs with my Seven boyfriend, but I am seriously tired of being SO AFFECTED by my mood state, ya know?

Anyway, the black humor issue...my dark, sardonic, ironic sense of humor has kept me going, definitely..without it I would be TRULY mobid and impossible to be around.....I LOVE dark humor I love my dark side, , yet, in observing myself, I use it as a cover up, a ruse.,and it does not seem serve me as much as it did before...I'm on the four "quest for authenticity" trip...and trying to really get healthy...it's a damn daunting task, though. Depression really is a bog and drain, and I have fluctuating responses of "I am unique" to "get over it J, others can exist on a stable level why the heck can't you?" I am beginning to resent the depression...so I get a little glop of anger to fondle on top of all the other "heavy" feelings.

Thanks for responding ....

Jess


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