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Posted by Bibi on May 27, 1998 at 13:09:20:

In Reply to: Re: Socializing posted by Michelle on May 26, 1998 at 14:48:54:

Hi Michelle - thank you for sharing, too! I also feel (and act) like a recluse - home, sweet home! Just like you I find that many people perceive me as outgoing, even fun-loving, and at times I AM! But I can also put on a mask in order to "survive out there", while all I want is to be left alone and crawl back under my rock. (It's a cozy rock, though! *s*)
I used to struggle with self-consciousness, but for the last few years this has not been a problem nor the reason for me to want to withdraw. It's really more a lack of interest in other's doings/activities/interests which I often find utterly boring or insignificant. I know I risk sounding stuck-up and thinking I'm some kind of superior being, which I am far from! Maybe I'm just the most egocentric person on earth? Oh, well...life goes on without me. Yeah - that's it! -People keep asking me what I as a 4 would like to contribute to the word, as if that was the motive of a 4. I don't get it. I have nothing I want to contribute, really. I think the world is a wonderful place, with lots of things to be happy about, even if I'm not blind to all the faults of people and how they tend to ruin all things good or beautiful. Still, I don't see "the world" as being a bad place, and I don't think I can do anything to change whatever is wrong. (The best I can do is try to show people that I care about the wonders of the enneagram...See - I DO care about some!)
I dunno.....I guess I'm in a phase of my life where I have chosen to me more by myself than I used to before, and it's easy since I just moved far away from home and everybody I knew. I do keep in touch, though - mostly via email. (Which is a comfortable way of communicating, I don't even have to brush my hair before I talk to anyone, hehe)

Bibi
PS: I am going to be using another name from now on, this is getting too personal for me to be using my real name...

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: Hi Michelle - thank you for sharing, too! I also feel (and act) like a recluse - home, sweet home! Just like you I find that many people perceive me as outgoing, even fun-loving, and at times I AM! But I can also put on a mask in order to "survive out there", while all I want is to be left alone and crawl back under my rock. (It's a cozy rock, though! *s*) : I used to struggle with self-consciousness, but for the last few years this has not been a problem nor the reason for me to want to withdraw. It's really more a lack of interest in other's doings/activities/interests which I often find utterly boring or insignificant. I know I risk sounding stuck-up and thinking I'm some kind of superior being, which I am far from! Maybe I'm just the most egocentric person on earth? Oh, well...life goes on without me. Yeah - that's it! -People keep asking me what I as a 4 would like to contribute to the word, as if that was the motive of a 4. I don't get it. I have nothing I want to contribute, really. I think the world is a wonderful place, with lots of things to be happy about, even if I'm not blind to all the faults of people and how they tend to ruin all things good or beautiful. Still, I don't see "the world" as being a bad place, and I don't think I can do anything to change whatever is wrong. (The best I can do is try to show people that I care about the wonders of the enneagram...See - I DO care about some!) : I dunno.....I guess I'm in a phase of my life where I have chosen to me more by myself than I used to before, and it's easy since I just moved far away from home and everybody I knew. I do keep in touch, though - mostly via email. (Which is a comfortable way of communicating, I don't even have to brush my hair before I talk to anyone, hehe) : Bibi : PS: I am going to be using another name from now on, this is getting too personal for me to be using my real name...

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