Posted by Bartholomew (63.214.110.110) on April 27, 2002 at 17:21:18:
In Reply to: Re: Everyone is focused on themselves in a gym, they won't be thinking about you. nt posted by Margaret (206.203.36.170) on April 27, 2002 at 14:39:33:
: I got a one month membership instead of two. I've decided to give myself only one month to find a totally excellent job, and if I don't find it within 4 weeks, then I'm going south and get a regular permanent job there. I'm scared though. I'm nervous as heck. I'm so scared to do this. I'm really scared. In a way I want to delay this even more because of that, but in another way, I just want to do it, and get the anticipation part over with. I mainly just want to be able to relax, instead of being so nervous and scared thinking and anticipating about it all the time. I really don't want to put things off much more though. I'm getting really tired and ancy about having so many things up in the air all the time. I need to come to some 'closure' in my life, get things settled, and not have to wonder where or what next. I want to wake up in the morning and know where I am, and have it be permanent. I want to be settled, have a home, a permanent home.
Desire for security is a 6 issue. You sound like you're being ruled by it more than you're being ruled by other motivations. You may be a six.