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Re: Thanks...but i AM a Four!

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Posted by Hal on October 01, 1999 at 09:29:30:

In Reply to: Thanks...but i AM a Four! posted by Cory on September 30, 1999 at 21:47:49:

: Hi Tigs!

: Yes, I AM a Four...every enneagram test I take I get that at the top (or a Five). But I realized I'm not a Five since I have alot of emotion behind me. As well, I have a creative/artistic zest for life...my first instinct when I see a night sky is to marvel before it, not to understand it. Fours are a very varied bunch, and it was ignorance of this fact which made me feel "different". Of course, wouldnt it be typically Fourish to believe I am truly individualistic and different than any other Four? :) You were right in typing me...I'm most likely a 4w5, but I'm not so sure I'm as healthy (and going to one) as you think. Depression is the noose that strangles my heart and drains it of all life. Apathy is the leash that drags me around wherever it wants to go. So, I'm in a rather miserable state as you can see, hidden underneath that metaphorical language. But what is odd is I don't think I'm going to two at all! It feels like I'm Less needy ironically...and get this...I tend to take up negative aspects of One. I get highly perfectionistic, very judgemental, I feel superior in thinking only I know what is up. Has this ever happened to you? Thanks for your input.

: -Cory

I have the same experience, which is why I don't take the directions of integration/disintigration as being accurate. I find that the connections to 1 and 2 are right on, but when "healthy" I take on the positive triats of both, and when "unhealthy" I take the negative of both.

On the negative side, I also become very picky, judgemental, angry, and self-righteous from the 1 arrow. I also become needy and manipulative and end up treating my friends badly to get what I want, from the 2 arrow. My hope is that, well my ultimate goal is to overcome these tendencies and needs entirely, but in the meantime, my hope is that I can recignize when I'm doing this and stop myself before I say and do things I later regret.

- Hal -

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: : Hi Tigs! : : Yes, I AM a Four...every enneagram test I take I get that at the top (or a Five). But I realized I'm not a Five since I have alot of emotion behind me. As well, I have a creative/artistic zest for life...my first instinct when I see a night sky is to marvel before it, not to understand it. Fours are a very varied bunch, and it was ignorance of this fact which made me feel "different". Of course, wouldnt it be typically Fourish to believe I am truly individualistic and different than any other Four? :) You were right in typing me...I'm most likely a 4w5, but I'm not so sure I'm as healthy (and going to one) as you think. Depression is the noose that strangles my heart and drains it of all life. Apathy is the leash that drags me around wherever it wants to go. So, I'm in a rather miserable state as you can see, hidden underneath that metaphorical language. But what is odd is I don't think I'm going to two at all! It feels like I'm Less needy ironically...and get this...I tend to take up negative aspects of One. I get highly perfectionistic, very judgemental, I feel superior in thinking only I know what is up. Has this ever happened to you? Thanks for your input. : : -Cory : I have the same experience, which is why I don't take the directions of integration/disintigration as being accurate. I find that the connections to 1 and 2 are right on, but when "healthy" I take on the positive triats of both, and when "unhealthy" I take the negative of both. : On the negative side, I also become very picky, judgemental, angry, and self-righteous from the 1 arrow. I also become needy and manipulative and end up treating my friends badly to get what I want, from the 2 arrow. My hope is that, well my ultimate goal is to overcome these tendencies and needs entirely, but in the meantime, my hope is that I can recignize when I'm doing this and stop myself before I say and do things I later regret. : - Hal -

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