Re: a 4 at 40/depression

Posted by jenny on July 07, 1998 at 23:12:43:

In Reply to: a 4 at 40 posted by Connie on July 04, 1998 at 17:01:50:

: Hello Today is my 40th b-day and I feel totally depressed. Here I am at mid-life and what have I accomplished? I could have done so much more with my life but always take the easy way out. My job is unfulfilling and meaningless. I should have followed my heart but instead went for a stable career. My relationship is also lackluster and meaningless. I should have followed my heart but instead went for a stable marriage. And now I feel it is too late and I am too stuck to make changes. Have any fours out there made big changes at mid-life? Please can someone give me some pointers?

I am still in school but i have come to realize that there is no way i would be satisfied with a career in whatever seems would work out best. if it isn't something i'm interested in and passionate about, it would probably make my life miserable like unfavorable classes in school right now :) it may sound completely ridiculous to suggest completely turning your life around now, but it may be the only way you will be satisfied. my other suggestion is to find something or someone outside of work and your husband that really intrests you to focus on. it may not be a big enough part of your life, but it would be easier than a huge change.

also, i have a question about this depression that a lot of fours seem to get. personally, the only reason i can think of that puts me into depression so frequently is various realizations about life and myself. something big or even little that goes wrong can trigger me to come critical and essentialy unreasonable conclusions after thinking about the situation for a while. also, the simplicity and ignorance of people and society in general really bothers me. i find myself wondering how people can be so happy with what they have when it means nothing. it disturbs me when i talk to a person about meaningless things, then say something vaguely emotional or deep and they're just like "yeah..."

But i have also found that not thinking in general can leave me feeling emptier than being depressed does. when i go through dry periods of feeling superficialy happy because i'm not thinking or feeling, i welcome bouts of depression. does anyone else feel any of this?

jenny

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