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Posted by John DiFool (4w5) on February 06, 1998 at 17:18:47:
In Reply to: Re: John's comment posted by Mark on February 04, 1998 at 18:43:12:
"The most terrifying moment in a person's life comes when (and if)
he realizes for the first time that he has total and unconditional
free will." (insert feminine pronoun where appropriate) When I had my serious bout of depression c. 15 years ago, the
core issue for me was my seeming lack of control over my life. My
would-be girlfriend's parents hated me, I had just flunked out of
techical college, and I felt like a leaf in the wind, powerless to
change my fate. Now (after a series of improbable events plus many other things)
I realize just how mistaken I was, and that in a way I
brought on all my problems, directly, indirectly, or even unconsciously.
I now put my creative energies into shaping and molding my life's path,
knowing that I am fully capable of (re)creating my reality. In a way
it is highly joyful, but also comes with more responsibility, needing
to own up to my hidden motives as well as being careful to do what I
feel is right-and not abusing this power either. I don't know if this helps, but just wanted to share my take on
the subject now that Mark brought it up. As for introspection, I too can't imagine an existence without it.
And yes, I too have to be wary of the traps of falling in too deep
(especially now that I am aware that images in the mind are more than
likely to manifest in reality!). If I find myself getting to caught up
in my own emotional/fantastical whirlwind, I often push myself to go
outside and observe nature's wonders-keeps me distracted at least, makes
me totally forget my imaginary problems at best! (bald eagles and
butterflies have a way of doing that to me!) ---John DiFool "Nothing is sadder than the tears of a make-believe girl."---The Church
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