On "On Working Hard and enjoying yourself."

Posted by Matches on October 31, 1999 at 21:28:32:

In Reply to: On Working Hard and enjoying yourself. posted by Tigs. on October 31, 1999 at 18:42:58:

(Deep breath)

I've never known anyone successful at any level who didn't put in his "fair share" of "work." Nor do I see many people who slack off and do nothing living an easy life. THat's the way it is...the world, I say again, is not meant for me. Or is it that I am not meant for this world. Either way, I'm a nobody.

If I get a job, I will still have to work, but at least I'm getting paid, instead of it being ME throwing thousands of dollars away at school.

: Isn't there anything you're interested in that they do at college?

What am I interested in? I don't even know. College things upset me. What can I do? In my eyes, college has as close to nothing to offer me as you can get without actually BEING nothing. I haven't found it yet.

: Subjects studied at college rarely have any obvious application to the jobs taken up by students when they leave. Employers just want to know that you are capable of doing what's required of you and are reasonably intelligent.

Well to be perfectly honest, I don't give a damn what employers want. I don't want to have to prove myself to anybody. That's one thing about school that upsets me. All you're doing is trying to prove that you can do things. I've got nothing to prove to anybody.

: I don't know if it's the same over there, but here people at work are expected to do exams and courses too. They have to take NVQs (National Vocational Qualifications) which can be quite tedious as you have to amass a file of evidence that you know what you're doing in your job. Time isn't usually give off for this.

I've not heard much about that...its possible, but then again I don't know much...

: Can't you find some way of enjoying yourself there? I loved having access to a library and to a gymn and swimming pool.

I have a hard time enjoying myself. I don't really enjoy myself that much. Libraries are cool, but I don't have the energy to make the effort to sit and read a book. I used to read a lot, but the last time I read a real book was probably about 3 years ago, and I don't even remember what it was. I don't like to run or ride bikes or lift weights too much...so very boring. Swimming I think would be cool, but...I think it all comes down to the fact that I don't really enjoy being around other people. That's the bottom line. I don't know why. I used to. But I don't anymore.

: You never said what things you were interested in generally.

What am I interested in? Not much anymore. It takes too much effort to be really interested in something. I don't DO anything. At most, I talk about doing things. Sometimes I think about doing things. But I never do. I hate it...

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