Posted by Tiggy on December 01, 1999 at 21:12:40:
In Reply to: Fears posted by Ronnie on December 01, 1999 at 17:16:35:
Would you say then that that behaviour that you learned to protect yourself when you were a kid is something still pertinent to your situation? I mean, as a kid it helped you to survive, but do you need it now to survive? I guess it probably upset you a lot when your friends got beaten up recently, as it reminded you of what an unsafe place the world can be.
You weren't being attacked for showing weakness before as a child, but for being smaller/younger and one on their own. It wasn't the same as showing allowing emotional vulnerability to show through with people you know, or being open about the things that matter to you. You're not dealing with the same people anyway. Though maybe some of the people at university are still like thuggish little boys!
"I don't expect to find much true caring and love in people. If someone wants to get close to me, I'm sure it's because I have something that others need"
What sort of thing? I would assume it's because they like your company.
not because I'd be interesting as a person alone.
I think you're interesting. I like talking to you. You're very clever and knowledgeable and there are some people who like that, and wouldn't you prefer the company of those people?
I find it very hard to believe when people say I'm nice or loveable or whatever. I just can't see why it would be so.
I can't see why it wouldn't be so. I think you're nice, though I can imagine having lots of arguments with you in a brotherly/sisterly fashion!
I think we both like arguing, and giving people hard stares - like Paddington Bear. I noticed when I first saw your photo, your suspicious stare. It looks like a parody of a hostile stare, but with a glint of humour in your eyes.
I'm the opposite of that actually. I can never understand why someone wouldn't like me! Really. I think I'm lovable and cute and should be allowed to get away with most things cos I'm a princess.