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Fours and their "emotional states"
Fours and their "emotional states"
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Posted by European Son on October 17, 1998 at 00:47:20:
Bear with me here....This message has been a few months in the making so these thoughts are kind of scrambled together...and theres no sentences, as I am a big fan of ellipses..(its a new form of writing; I truely am the artist)
I managed to go through high school with little to no friends...Oh I had people I talked to occasionally but nothing ever really happened...Rarely went out and spent most of my time alone in my room...
So about a year ago (summer before senior year) I started reading about personality tests and the like and the web...And I took this enneagram test here and I came out to be either a 4w5 or 5w4....the more I took it it leaned more to the 4 I accepted this for a while..It seemed to fit.....but the more I started thinking and reading about it the less accurate it seemed. I'm no elitist, I eat at McDonalds, the anti-thesis of elitism....I don't see this as "selling out"...And this romantic image and this emotion thing? I don't consider myself a romantic at all....In fact I'm notoriously unskilled in the romantic arts I have a disinclination to giving flowers and candy, particularly on valentines day, not that I've ever been in a situation where I've been expected to give such things...And about emotions....aren't 4s emotional reserved? Isn't cheap mainstream emotion like the titanic (Not that I'VE ever seen it) more the stuff of other types? So it sort of bothers me...I sometimes see these messages from people claiming to be 4's that go on and on about how 4-like and emotional they are, and I secretly suspect these people to be 6s or maybe 7s... I don't know...maybe I'm not a 4 so I don't have a clue about being a 4. Anyway, I don't consider myself unemotional, but I've been called unemotional by my parents and others....this kind of shocked me...I thought I always appeared at least self absorbed. But I can't relate to being depressed all the time either....sometimes I'm downright happy for no good reason...unfortunately, this usually only happens when I'm alone....And so my story ends here...Now I'm in college, its better then high school but its still not where I want to be....Its an uncomfortable feeling that I'm delaying my life yet again...So I really don't know where I'm going with this...I'm just trying to liven things up a bit and raise some issues that I see with this enneagram thing....I've probably left many things that I wanted to say out...I promise next time it will be one issue per message... so...bye
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