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Enneagram Type 5 Board Archive Re: Poor 5 board...Posted by Bartholomew on February 16, 2001 at 18:24:31: In Reply to: Re: Poor 5 board... posted by RoTtEn ApPlE on February 16, 2001 at 17:16:15: : I can do what you're talking about... sort project yourself out of yourself... not quite the same. In a depersonalized experience you are like an empty shell walking around doing stuff without feeling 'in' your own time and space... sometimes you may not feel your own arms and legs etc.... you can lose connection with your senses. It's frightening because (1) I have a low sense of morality & empathy anyway... this means it completely vanishes (2) my 'self' (whatever that is) feels helpless and homeless. Hasn't happened to me in a while. Well, I do go on autopilot more often than I would like to. I often find myself picking the wrong utensils for the food I want to eat - for instance, taking a fork and a bowl when I was planning to make a sandwich. When that happens, it is because I am thinking about how to actually extract the fork and bowl from the dishwasher and drawer, but I hadn't even thought to think of deciding just what I needed to get to accomplish the task I had set out to do. This might be relevant - sometimes when I am feeling kind of tired and typing black text on a white screen (as I am doing now) I get the impression that the screen is miles away from me, and so are my hands. It all looks smaller somehow, even though the picture doesn't change. It has happened to me a few times when I was reading black text from a white printed page in a book too. I feel very detached from everything, and when I tell my fingers to type, they seem like other things that I just happen to be feeling, as if someone else were tickling my fingertips and my fingertips were a great distance away. It's a nice feeling. Irrelevant to the main topic but relevant to that sidetrack is something that sometimes happens to me when I look at the ground in front of me. I get the sensation of watching something move in the center of my vision, as if the ground in front of me was a slow-moving river. However, nothing actually changes its location; it just seems to be moving. I guess that motion sense is separate from changes in location.
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