Depression

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: About a week ago, I was thinking about the way that I'd been feeling. I do this a lot, but I never noticed one particular thing: my life had been completely dominated for years by a quiet, calm, sad feeling. I noticed it as I was thinking about it just then. As soon as I noticed it, I couldn't stand the way that I was feeling; I was feeling as if I were depressed. I then meditated a bit, and consciously changed my mood to be a lot happier in general. It worked, extemely effectively. Since then, I have been feeling (other than happy) much less sure of myself, much less intelligent (although I doubt that that feeling is true), and in general less comfortable in myself. It is like reality is deadened and blunted and lukewarm. There is a background noise of happiness, but I feel DISORIENTED, and I dislike it very much. : I have tried, and found that I am able to, change my mood back to the abstract, unhappy coolness that it used to be, but I have to work at maintaining that. : I feel like I am not a type 5 anymore. : Is fiveness somehow caused by sadness? : (I swear, I am not lying or kidding about the emotional experiences I described. It sounds surreal and impossible, but it happened)

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