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Posted by LD on October 21, 2000 at 10:16:02:

I have rarely ever opened myself up to any others because I could never trust anyone.
And that was the only smartest thing I've ever done.
Of course until I made my one single dumb mistake.
I only opened myself up to one person my whole life and that was this past last year.
Of course that was also the biggest mistake I ever made my whole life.
It killed me and my confidence and trust in the idea of "love". I once again, am back to normal, in no longer believing it exists, but only as a figment of one's imagination.
But this is what I have always believed all along anyway.
It's just that before, very unlike right now, I never had any real kind of hard, concrete, hard evidence and proof that "romatic, true love" does not really exist after all, but only as a fairy tale, a kind of comic cruel 'joke', that if could ever exist in the first place, only would be nothing but a kind of cruel, evil, bitter trap for the unitiated to get suckered into and learn the hard way.

I guess after just one God awful cruel evil experience like this is all one really has to have to learn one's lessons though.

"Love" as in "true love" does not exist. Only figments of one's imagination does.
Always beware.
Keep eyes wide open at all times.
If you ever risk them shut, you will get stabbed.
Nailed in the head.
With a hammer.

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Finding security in NOT trusting others? Elizabeth 13:13:02 10/26/00 (0)
Re: trusting others aaron 00:05:59 10/26/00 (0)
Re: trusting others Nyks 12:30:27 10/24/00 (0)
Dealing with pain and depression Sambersil 22:12:19 10/23/00 (1)
- Re: Dealing with pain and depression Nyks 12:48:16 10/24/00 (0)
Re: trusting others cj 17:48:45 10/23/00 (0)
Re: trusting others K.B. 13:40:52 10/22/00 (0)
Re: trusting others Laurence 06:02:16 10/22/00 (0)
there is light at the end of the tunnel Margaret 04:55:22 10/22/00 (0)

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: I have rarely ever opened myself up to any others because I could never trust anyone. : And that was the only smartest thing I've ever done. : Of course until I made my one single dumb mistake. : I only opened myself up to one person my whole life and that was this past last year. : Of course that was also the biggest mistake I ever made my whole life. : It killed me and my confidence and trust in the idea of "love". I once again, am back to normal, in no longer believing it exists, but only as a figment of one's imagination. : But this is what I have always believed all along anyway. : It's just that before, very unlike right now, I never had any real kind of hard, concrete, hard evidence and proof that "romatic, true love" does not really exist after all, but only as a fairy tale, a kind of comic cruel 'joke', that if could ever exist in the first place, only would be nothing but a kind of cruel, evil, bitter trap for the unitiated to get suckered into and learn the hard way. : I guess after just one God awful cruel evil experience like this is all one really has to have to learn one's lessons though. : "Love" as in "true love" does not exist. Only figments of one's imagination does. : Always beware. : Keep eyes wide open at all times. : If you ever risk them shut, you will get stabbed. : Nailed in the head. : With a hammer.

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