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Dealing with pain and depression

Dealing with pain and depression

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Posted by Sambersil on October 23, 2000 at 22:12:19:

In Reply to: trusting others posted by LD on October 21, 2000 at 10:16:02:

Keep trying. If it hurts, keep at it. If it makes you sad, keep at it. If nothing else, you get pain and sadness, which can make you very happy when you look back at it. "Wow, I had the willpower to live through that?" you can think, and feel a glow of pride and energy. This is an attitude I often adopt to painful activities; pain, given time, yields happiness and more willpower, so experience pain (especially emotional, the memory of physical pain fades too fast for much benefit) to gain the rewards of both the activity that gave you pain and the sense of self worth and accomplishment of experiencing it.

: I have rarely ever opened myself up to any others because I could never trust anyone.
: And that was the only smartest thing I've ever done.
: Of course until I made my one single dumb mistake.
: I only opened myself up to one person my whole life and that was this past last year.
: Of course that was also the biggest mistake I ever made my whole life.
: It killed me and my confidence and trust in the idea of "love". I once again, am back to normal, in no longer believing it exists, but only as a figment of one's imagination.
: But this is what I have always believed all along anyway.
: It's just that before, very unlike right now, I never had any real kind of hard, concrete, hard evidence and proof that "romatic, true love" does not really exist after all, but only as a fairy tale, a kind of comic cruel 'joke', that if could ever exist in the first place, only would be nothing but a kind of cruel, evil, bitter trap for the unitiated to get suckered into and learn the hard way.

: I guess after just one God awful cruel evil experience like this is all one really has to have to learn one's lessons though.

: "Love" as in "true love" does not exist. Only figments of one's imagination does.
: Always beware.
: Keep eyes wide open at all times.
: If you ever risk them shut, you will get stabbed.
: Nailed in the head.
: With a hammer.

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: Keep trying. If it hurts, keep at it. If it makes you sad, keep at it. If nothing else, you get pain and sadness, which can make you very happy when you look back at it. "Wow, I had the willpower to live through that?" you can think, and feel a glow of pride and energy. This is an attitude I often adopt to painful activities; pain, given time, yields happiness and more willpower, so experience pain (especially emotional, the memory of physical pain fades too fast for much benefit) to gain the rewards of both the activity that gave you pain and the sense of self worth and accomplishment of experiencing it. : : I have rarely ever opened myself up to any others because I could never trust anyone. : : And that was the only smartest thing I've ever done. : : Of course until I made my one single dumb mistake. : : I only opened myself up to one person my whole life and that was this past last year. : : Of course that was also the biggest mistake I ever made my whole life. : : It killed me and my confidence and trust in the idea of "love". I once again, am back to normal, in no longer believing it exists, but only as a figment of one's imagination. : : But this is what I have always believed all along anyway. : : It's just that before, very unlike right now, I never had any real kind of hard, concrete, hard evidence and proof that "romatic, true love" does not really exist after all, but only as a fairy tale, a kind of comic cruel 'joke', that if could ever exist in the first place, only would be nothing but a kind of cruel, evil, bitter trap for the unitiated to get suckered into and learn the hard way. : : I guess after just one God awful cruel evil experience like this is all one really has to have to learn one's lessons though. : : "Love" as in "true love" does not exist. Only figments of one's imagination does. : : Always beware. : : Keep eyes wide open at all times. : : If you ever risk them shut, you will get stabbed. : : Nailed in the head. : : With a hammer.

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