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What do you think of my personality?

What do you think of my personality?

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Posted by Anonymous on November 03, 2000 at 21:09:32:

I like to think about and deal my emotions a lot. I will almost never try to ignore them; the idea of it seems self destructive. I am very philosophical when dealing with my emotions, and I have gotten to the point when I can decide how I want to feel and then consciously change the way I feel to that ideal. I do not like revealing my emotions and motivations to people I know, and whenever I do this I want to avoid that person for a long time afterwards. I feel as if I were being weakened somehow in the telling. If I do not fear personal contact with the person, I can easily pour out my soul to them - so far, this situation has only occured in text - based situations such as this one.

I enjoy being the center of confused attention, preferably the attention of a group. I cannot take compliments very well, and though they please me, the confusion of how to respond usually makes me feel pretty bad. This bad feeling also disappears in a text - based situation, where I do not have to talk to the person's actual face. I cannot take criticism very well, and I ignore criticisms or try to change to topic or confuse the critic or show the critic how smart I am. With the last case, I again do not want positive attention. I crave attention in general, however, and after you take away the undesirable positive and negative attention, what is left, and what I seek for, is neutral attention. This includes, among other parts, confusion, disgust (for some reason, I don't consider disgust a negative attention), and annoyance. I will sometimes try for positive attention, but when I do this I respond with a quick, negative response - optimally, it will leave the positive attention-giver confused and insulted. I think I do this to negate the "emotional sincerity" effect that leaves me so uncomfortable.

I always want to say something intelligent. A big part of my self image is the appearance of intelligence. When I am face-to-face with a person, as I explained, I try to make the intelligent remark as confusing as possible. When I am in a text environment, I usually try to be a useful contributor, because I do not need to deal with the response to my contribution on a personal level. This post is an example of that trait.

I have a deep urge to be the best in whatever group I am in. I often feel very depressed if I am not doing well. This is partly from the need to be the center of group attention. I do not think that it helps me in any way, and although I would not discard such a large part of my personality if I could, I think I would be better off without this urge.

If I am below average at anything, I am deeply hurt, and will work hard to get myself at least above average.

If someone asks me for help with something, I try to help them. I almost never volunteer help; that would be too emotionally open. If they thank me much, as I explained, I respond with an insult or a confusing, evasive statement.

I identify myself primarily as smart and unusual, and when I find that other people think I am "just like everyone else" or stupid, I feel "wronged". This is such a strong emotion that it affects me in an impersonal, text-based environment as well. This is another personality trait that I think I would be better off without, but wouldn't rid myself of if I could.

I have a strong sense of justice and injustice, and I become extremely angry if this sense becomes offended. I honestly cannot remember a time when I have felt enough anger to control my actions when I did not perceive injustice.

I have a deep need to be consistent with myself. I philosophize to satisfy this. This need is perhaps an offshoot of my sense of justice and injustice. Whenever I feel that I have acted in an inconsistent manner, I dislike myself for a long time afterward, or at least until I can convince myself that I was, on some level, just and consistent. Now that I think of it, I guess I identify myself as just and self-consistent as well.

The above is my entire personality described as well as I can, and I think that it is a very accurate description.

Well, type me. What type am I? And what kind of a person do you think I am?

Follow Ups:

My sense of "justice" (I don't think I am an 8) Anonymous 11:50:46 11/04/00 (1)
- Re: My sense of "justice" (I don't think I am an 8) Laurence 02:29:48 11/05/00 (0)
My scores on the tests Anonymous 10:58:46 11/04/00 (0)
Re: What do you think of my personality? Laurence 09:10:46 11/04/00 (0)
You came to the right place K.B. 02:41:49 11/04/00 (0)
Re: What do you think of my personality? Jim 23:01:02 11/03/00 (2)
- Re: What do you think of my personality? Sambersil 08:47:32 11/04/00 (1)
  - Sorry, I was trying to respond in some way but I decided I didn't have anything to say, but I hit enter by accident - the above response has nothing in it. (nt) Sambersil 08:49:36 11/04/00 (0)

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: I like to think about and deal my emotions a lot. I will almost never try to ignore them; the idea of it seems self destructive. I am very philosophical when dealing with my emotions, and I have gotten to the point when I can decide how I want to feel and then consciously change the way I feel to that ideal. I do not like revealing my emotions and motivations to people I know, and whenever I do this I want to avoid that person for a long time afterwards. I feel as if I were being weakened somehow in the telling. If I do not fear personal contact with the person, I can easily pour out my soul to them - so far, this situation has only occured in text - based situations such as this one. : I enjoy being the center of confused attention, preferably the attention of a group. I cannot take compliments very well, and though they please me, the confusion of how to respond usually makes me feel pretty bad. This bad feeling also disappears in a text - based situation, where I do not have to talk to the person's actual face. I cannot take criticism very well, and I ignore criticisms or try to change to topic or confuse the critic or show the critic how smart I am. With the last case, I again do not want positive attention. I crave attention in general, however, and after you take away the undesirable positive and negative attention, what is left, and what I seek for, is neutral attention. This includes, among other parts, confusion, disgust (for some reason, I don't consider disgust a negative attention), and annoyance. I will sometimes try for positive attention, but when I do this I respond with a quick, negative response - optimally, it will leave the positive attention-giver confused and insulted. I think I do this to negate the "emotional sincerity" effect that leaves me so uncomfortable. : I always want to say something intelligent. A big part of my self image is the appearance of intelligence. When I am face-to-face with a person, as I explained, I try to make the intelligent remark as confusing as possible. When I am in a text environment, I usually try to be a useful contributor, because I do not need to deal with the response to my contribution on a personal level. This post is an example of that trait. : I have a deep urge to be the best in whatever group I am in. I often feel very depressed if I am not doing well. This is partly from the need to be the center of group attention. I do not think that it helps me in any way, and although I would not discard such a large part of my personality if I could, I think I would be better off without this urge. : If I am below average at anything, I am deeply hurt, and will work hard to get myself at least above average. : If someone asks me for help with something, I try to help them. I almost never volunteer help; that would be too emotionally open. If they thank me much, as I explained, I respond with an insult or a confusing, evasive statement. : I identify myself primarily as smart and unusual, and when I find that other people think I am "just like everyone else" or stupid, I feel "wronged". This is such a strong emotion that it affects me in an impersonal, text-based environment as well. This is another personality trait that I think I would be better off without, but wouldn't rid myself of if I could. : I have a strong sense of justice and injustice, and I become extremely angry if this sense becomes offended. I honestly cannot remember a time when I have felt enough anger to control my actions when I did not perceive injustice. : I have a deep need to be consistent with myself. I philosophize to satisfy this. This need is perhaps an offshoot of my sense of justice and injustice. Whenever I feel that I have acted in an inconsistent manner, I dislike myself for a long time afterward, or at least until I can convince myself that I was, on some level, just and consistent. Now that I think of it, I guess I identify myself as just and self-consistent as well. : : The above is my entire personality described as well as I can, and I think that it is a very accurate description. : Well, type me. What type am I? And what kind of a person do you think I am?

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