Posted by Hal on July 02, 1998 at 15:31:19:
In Reply to: Re: Enneatype: Question for Hal posted by Summer on July 02, 1998 at 11:11:06:
: Hal, are you sure your a four? Being a four with a five wing, I have learned that there are so many similarities between the two types - maybe you are a five with a strong four wing?? It seems to me if you have always acted out of five, then maybe that's really you. And maybe what you had really been ignoring your whole life was that strong four wing. I have a very good male friend who I thought was a four, but realized he is really a five (with a strong four wing) I could be way off base here, but I notice some people on the board typing themselves in haste. I've never found any of the tests fool-proof; only upon reading many different e-gram books from different sources does it all start to come clear...just a thought. - Lauren
I'm quite sure that I'm a 4, though I certainly used to seem like a 5. The reason I don't think I'm really a 5 is this: I used to be strongly interested in science, technology, the latest gadgets, and understanding how the universe works (typical 5 stuff.) But I've changed a lot over the last several months, and most of that just isn't very important to me anymore. Most of it seems rather pointless, and while I still want to know about some of the latest man-made high-tech stuff, and would like to understand the secrets of the universe, I don't feel like the world will leave me behind if I don't know about it. External things have lost much of their charm, and I'm thinking that all that time, I was just using it as an escape, a way of avoiding the real issues that were bothering and motivating me.
I certainly always had many 4 traits, such as trying to figure out who I really am, and always being afraid that I was missing out on something better. These things are now exclusively what matters to me, and so much of what's going on around me just seems like a distraction from the inner world that holds the answers.
I'm not sure if I'm making a whole lot of sense here, but maybe this will help: I've never been a typical techno-nerd. I never truly fit in with that crowd that competes for the ultimate in scientific and technical knowledge. I would always see those people and think that it was just crazy that anyone would devote their entire lives to something like that. At the time, I always thought I was just a Renaissance man, that I wanted more balance in my life, but maybe I was just trying to force myself into a place I didn't really fit. I guess I always knew there was something more in life, or at least something else, although until recently I hadn't even come close to putting my finger on what it was. But now that I have experienced some of that "something more", all those grades and bits and watts and horsepower and everything else that used to occupy my time seems very trivial by comparison.
I hope this explanation helps--it certainly helps me.
- Hal -