Posted by lydia on March 30, 2000 at 08:36:28:
In Reply to: Interacting with the world posted by Cory on March 30, 2000 at 00:22:36:
Maybe you just think that people don't like you. Could this be? I don't know what you are like in person, but if a big portion of it is like what I have seen, it is true you are interesting. Not because you are a mysterious loner. I haven't seen that portion of you. From what I've read on the posts of you, you have certain qualities than many people lack, and perhaps cannot detect, and do not value. An example: you said no intp has said you are a thinker, but you can think, you also seem to be imaginative. Most people aren't of the intuitive sort, and many of them just don't give a damn about the qualities that iNtuitives often have. Like you said they're just interested in it. I'll bet that you value in yourself things that others do not value in people, yeah? I know it's like that with me. Also i tend to think that no one likes me simple because they do not converse with me about even moderately deep things, nor are they interested in the stuff that I am into. But it could be that they just aren't into it, the same was I wouldn't be into a lot of their stuff, although i would still listen when they talked. Maybe this happpens with you? I know some people think things about me that are non true, it doesn't effect me however. Part of being an introvert in being abl to enjoy time alone. How old are you anyhow?
> Actually, I think I have a poor self-image of myself in the world, which I am overcoming. I used to see myself as EXTREMELY introverted, but now I realized it's only moderate to heavy. As well, I've had several people point out to me that I am "unique", "weird", "different", yet my interaction with the world is a constact act, it's a role I play, and the role I play (well Attempt, obviously) is of someone who is rather normal. I really thought I was doing a good job, until some started seeing under my mask. Not that it matters. I mean, people say "be your true self and you'll be accepted". Not at all. I've found my difference and odd personality just amuse people, but don't get them to like me more. I'm more of a caged zoo animal who provides idle entertainment, then they abandon me to go home while I remain. Yes, that's my existence in a metaphor. You see, no one LIKES me...they only find me interesting, like a scientist studying some rare insect.
> You know, people brag about being an "outcast", but that infuriates me since I find that to be pretentious of them. In high school for example, EVERYBODY, and by everybody I mean everyone except me, ate lunch in groups. Even the so-called "outcasts". No, I was the only true loner at my school, everyone else is so fake compared to me it sickens me. See, it's an ego fix to call yourself an "outsider", "rebel", "loner", "misfit", etc. but very very very few of those self-labeled "individuals" (term used loosely) actually are deservant of having such a yoke placed around their heads.
> I hate the world. I hate women. Both have abandoned me.
> Blah, Im a Four.
> -Cory