Posted by Mikko on April 26, 2000 at 15:24:29:
In Reply to: Just an attempt to describe myself. posted by Emma on April 26, 2000 at 11:48:20:
> Or an attempt to get some attention, (positive please) you see I have an habit of fishing for compliments and that causes me to do a lot of good work, but it also feel a bit vain. The vainity bothers me because I want to be genuine and live according to God plan with my life.
You say you want to be genuine, but your vanity bothers you. Maybe you have it for reason, isn't it that everyone has a cross to bear?
> I feel very different when I am together with friends and when I am alone. I consider myself s social outgoing person. On the other hand when I´m alone I can be quite philosophical, a side of me that I seldom show to my friends. ( Even if I show the my poems I don´t explain anything).
I used to be like that too, different with friends and when alone. For some reason I don't feel like that anymore, but I'm not sure if it's a good thing. In fact, I think it would be better if there was more of a difference. I'd probably be much more outgoing as a person (I was naturally very much so as a kid) but I've learned to be an introvert. As I've understood, most introverts are happy even though they aren't able to contact such a wide variety of people, I'm not.
> In my everyday life I´m surrounded with as many helping people that seldom find the oppurtunity to help others with practical things, somebody else volunters before me and then I think let him/her do it...
> But sometimes I experience that my presence gives joy to some, and I also asked to help
> with intellectual things.
Few people (of those who don't know me closely) ask for my help in any matters or even want to have anything to do with me. It bothers me a lot.
> I like to see things from many sides, (as type 9 does) but I tend to decide quicker what I want.
I'd like to think/talk things through too, but I've learned that if I don't decide on the spot what I want, people just dismiss me and opportunities go by.
> Well, I have a lot more to tell but first I´d like to now if anybody is really interested.
> I do this to find my place in this enneagram system, but also to test the enneagram is it worth the attention we are giving to it.
Same here.
Mikko