Logically, it never made sense to me....I'm a control freak

Posted by susan on December 15, 2000 at 01:15:15:

In Reply to: Cory - What i think about drugs/alcohol... posted by Excalibur on December 14, 2000 at 03:59:25:

These are the reasons I don't do drugs, smoke or drink.

1. Religious convictions
2. My parents didn't do drugs, smoke or drink
3. I always wanted to be aware and in control of myself
4. I didn't care what my friends thought
5. I wanted to stay as healthy as possible

I'm just saying that this is the truth of me, it doesn't have to be the truth of anybody else. It's just my code of ethics. So, please, don't anybody get bent out of shape. (I'm not being defensive, you are! -Note- I am making fun of myself here - Martin Short SNL reference....defective whoopi cushion lawyer character) I don't care what anybody else does or believes.

I will say that I took a lot of heat in my high school and college days from some friends who thought I was trying to be high and mighty. I never judged them about their habits but for some reason they judged me. There was always defensiveness and disbelief. At parties and events.....I would always get the "why don't you?" deal. "What's wrong with you?" "C'mon you are missing out. "I prefer not to" & "Nothing," never did seem to be good enough answers. I was usually tagged as the "Goody Two Shoes" of the party. (And let me tell you something, that will make you really popular really fast!......NOT!) More like.... make you the designated driver fast. Needless to say..I lost some friends this way. I know, I know if they couldn't accept me for who I am then they weren't real friends in the first place. Yeah, but to an 18 year old mind that was hard to get.

It took me awhile but I did finally find some friends that it didn't bother. They'd just stock a Pepsi for me and that was the end of it.

susan INFP/4w5

Follow Ups:

• Re: Logically, it never made sense to me....I'm a control freak Perciever 18:10:49 12/15/00 (0)
• Grr Bartholomew 13:00:10 12/15/00 (20)
  • Re: Grr susan 22:35:47 12/15/00 (2)
    • More clarification susan 23:31:56 12/15/00 (1)
      • In a nutshell: I had not yet learned how to deal with those situations at 18. Susan..this seemed more clear. (o: 00:58:48 12/16/00 (0)
  • Re: Grr S. K. 16:02:34 12/15/00 (13)
    • PS S. K. 16:04:57 12/15/00 (12)
      • A post for everyone! Emily 18:39:07 12/15/00 (10)
        • 23 on Jan. 29th :( nt Ana 22:44:50 12/18/00 (0)
        • 19 EH!!!! [nt] Jeff 06:46:33 12/18/00 (0)
        • 12/26/80- almost 20 NT Angie 18:13:56 12/16/00 (0)
        • Twenty. Cory [nt] 01:49:16 12/16/00 (0)
        • My Bday: 7/26/75 (100yrs to the day after Carl Jung) -nt Matt 01:26:07 12/16/00 (0)
        • Re: A post for everyone! Jason M. 20:51:49 12/15/00 (2)
          • Seriously? Emily [nt] 11:12:04 12/16/00 (1)
            • Yes (but not the pattern part). (NT) Jason M. 18:09:28 12/17/00 (0)
        • Just turned 26 last month. nt Elizabeth 19:03:47 12/15/00 (0)
        • 19, 20 next September 1st - nt Excalibur 18:56:39 12/15/00 (0)
      • Re: PS Bartholomew 16:46:50 12/15/00 (0)
  • Re: Grr Jeff 14:10:58 12/15/00 (2)
    • Snarl Bartholomew 16:53:12 12/15/00 (1)
      • Whatever. I'm Right [nt] Jeff 06:45:25 12/18/00 (0)
• Walk proud N.T. K.B. 01:45:18 12/15/00 (1)
  • Thanks KB! I'm glad I stuck to my code during those insecure years! (o: (nt) susan 04:09:18 12/15/00 (0)

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