Posted by Emily on October 28, 2001 at 08:17:13:
In Reply to: The life of me posted by Cory on October 28, 2001 at 02:03:13:
> I know you want to know about me. This is some sort of cheap prostitution. I am somewhat of a celebrity in your pathetic world. You devote yourself to this board because you have a useless life...like me. I am a celebrity to you; you are a celebrity to me. We both realize our lives our useless and purposeless and worthless.
Hmm. I don't think my life is very useless, purposeless, or worthless. I really like my life. I don't have a million friends, I have two really effing good ones, and I'm very happy with that. I have a good job, and I like the people I work with. I go to school, but, well, I hate school so that part of my life sucks. At least it's going to have a useful outcome when I'm finished with it.
I have fun. I love my cats. My mom is a pretty cool gal. I sing really loud in the car.
> This is why I apologize to everyone on here.
It's ok.
> I am being sincere. Since Fall of '99 I have been here.
Me too. Thanks for showing me this site, by the way.
> If a person had a GOOD LIFE, would they spend it on here?
An addition to their good life. Not very many people spend their whole lives here, just a little of their day. Think about how, because of this site, we've met people from around the world, become close to them in a new, strange sort of way, and gained a lot of understanding of ourselves in the process. It's kind of an outlet for a lot of people, like how you chose to post this very message. It's healthy to have somewhere to go like that, and it doesn't matter whether it's online, in person, or over the phone.
>I know I've been spending less hours on this board...but that's because I'm a sexaholic, pot addicted maniac, and an alcoholic...reminds me...I need my fix right now.
I tried to tell you to be careful. Lots of us here did. =o(
> This shit may fuck me up in the long run, but at least it makes me honest in the present.
Here's an idea: Use your four wing to try to be honest without being drunk and high. It's fun.
> Maybe it's complacency. Maybe it's fear of the unknown. All I know is I am tied down and I know who I am.
It's good that you know who you are.
> My girlfriend has been pregnant for 3 months. We are planning on getting an abortion this week or the next.
> I remember Spring of 2000 ranting about being against abortion. But since then I've become to be Pro-Choice. And know that I have experienced this situation directly, I realize abortion is a better choice than to give a hard life to another human being.
Whenever you used to post things like that I always say, "But you're speaking from your head. Have you ever actually experienced that?" and then someone, Liz maybe, always says, "You put too much value on experience."
The choice you two have been forced to make is a hard one. Very hard. There have been two times so far in my life where I had myself convinced that I was pregnant (both times I wasn't), the second time was a more logical conclusion since I was having nausea in the mornings and felt full constantly, despite me not eating much. Never figured out what was wrong with me, but the power of suggestion is never to be taken lightly.
Anyway, I had no idea what I was going to do had I been pregnant. I don't think when pro-lifers say, "Abortion is the easy way out" that they really know what they're talking about. Even just considering abortion for a second made it painful for me to look at babies I'd see on TV or in stores, and kids laughing and hanging on their parents' arms made me feel hopeless and very sad. Adoption was out of the question. I can't even get rid of my favorite stuffed animal from my childhood. All in all, I probably would have kept the baby, had I been pregnant, but I don't hold anything against women that do decide to get abortions...I don't see them as "morally inferior" or any such crap.
Anyway, keep it safe and stuff. Don't go dying on us or anything. My world, for one, would be a little (a lot) less good.
-Emily