Posted by Ran on October 28, 2001 at 09:31:31:
In Reply to: The life of me posted by Cory on October 28, 2001 at 02:03:13:
ME. Hi Croy I love talking to proplre just like me 'cause you are just like me. Too bad I don't have a leg to stand on to get deeper in conversation with you but you seem to be a neato person. Wanna play a game of pickup b-ball sometime? Bet i could win. Or hows about some sandlot football? I've been called "the beast" when I play middle linebacker cause I use my big thick head to drive through those pesky little black running backs. Thi8s is how i relive my glory days. It feels good to be in charge of something like a svelte defense every once in a while. Because you know if you are football illiterate that the linebackers are the quarterback of the defence therefore they call the shots, stunts and defensive shifts. I guess thats where my mentality of 'stand and fight like a man comes from, well it comes from that and the time motto of the u.s.s. anzio which is a destroyer i worked on as a pipefitter, in the norfolk naval shipyard a couple of years ago. Do you like to pump iron? Everyone likes to pump iron with me. Don't know why though. I was just fired from my last job at Lowes for getting high with the hardware manager. Well, I quit because they had us both on camera in the back lot passing the woola (coke and pot mixed) back and forth. Thats a true story. I don't consider myself pathetic though because I know you now too consider yourself a pathetic person and this is how I like to leave you with that though in your mind. Cause we are all just worms crawling for that last piece of shit to lay our eggs on to be quite frankly with you. lets trade e-mails and hey maybe I can come visit you out in california and maybe I can visit my cousin who lives out in lake tahoe in nevada and my aunt out in merced and my best bud out in bakersfield. lets do it man. come on i want to meet you, sometime. I'll be in touch with you. NEBRASKA #1 ALL THE WAY- great game yesterday even though I lost again 8sigh8 only 20 bills this time though so I think I will forget about any retribution or retaliation as losing a bet drives me insane with piss.
> I know you want to know about me. This is some sort of cheap prostitution. I am somewhat of a celebrity in your pathetic world. You devote yourself to this board because you have a useless life...like me. I am a celebrity to you; you are a celebrity to me. We both realize our lives our useless and purposeless and worthless.
> This is why I apologize to everyone on here.
> I am being sincere. Since Fall of '99 I have been here. This is probably the first time I've been sincere to the people on this board. I've always been a charlatan, or a prankster, or a jerk...but this time I am being honest to you.
> If a person had a GOOD LIFE, would they spend it on here? I know I've been spending less hours on this board...but that's because I'm a sexaholic, pot addicted maniac, and an alcoholic...reminds me...I need my fix right now. I am an ADDICT to HEDONISM. Liz says I am really a closeted moralist, trying to prove a point. I don't know if she is right or not; all I know is I trust her deeply and I think she knows the True Me. I act as a leach onto her. It's strange that she thinks I'm a Five when I act so Fourish to her. She knows the real me.
> I know I dissent from the enneagram from time to time. But that is my Six Wing talking. I truly am a Five. I believe it in my heart. Yes, the ultra-logical FIVE believes it in his HEART. I realize my questions about the enneagram are simply a misunderstanding.
> Ok, look, if you're thinking "This is a bunch of bullshit" I admit I've had a bowl of pot, 5 bottles of Miller, and 2 shots of Jim Beam. ;) This shit may fuck me up in the long run, but at least it makes me honest in the present.
> I am a Five. The Four and Six wing have battled to control me for a long time. The Four Wing represents my free, artistic, liberal nature while the Six Wing longs for security, rules, and simplicity.
> Tonight I romance the counterwing Six and loot my city. Just the other night I threw three shrimp lo mein leftover dinners onto a Lexus SUV?
> Why?
> Cuz I hate rich fuckers.
> And their pretentious wannabe trucks.
> Diarmuid, maybe you know me as a Conservative, but I've changed into a liberal a long time ago. I understand the pain of the underclass and the worker first hand because I've lived as one for the past 3 years.
> Life changed for me at 18. I was ushered out of my sheltered childhood into an adulthood of struggle, misery, but occasional fun. I haven't moved forward socially. I still work at the same job...the first and only job I've had...since October 30, 1998.
> Maybe it's complacency. Maybe it's fear of the unknown. All I know is I am tied down and I know who I am.
> My girlfriend has been pregnant for 3 months. We are planning on getting an abortion this week or the next. I remember Spring of 2000 ranting about being against abortion. But since then I've become to be Pro-Choice. And know that I have experienced this situation directly, I realize abortion is a better choice than to give a hard life to another human being.
> Abortion is the more empathic choice; whether or not those Pro-Life freaks want to admit it.
> I have a $60 a week habit for pot...I drink everyday..
> Down in the spiral I go.
> Hey, the enneagram is right...5 to 7...
> although I think the enneagram must be a bit more liberal. Riso says the descent to 7 is more so symbolic, in that the 5's mind heats up and goes crazy...No...I know differently. I literally become a semi-7 in that I cannot digest life, I become a consumer, and I addict myself to death.
> That is all, for now...
> -Cory
> 5w4 INTP