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Enneagram Main Board Archive CoryPosted by Alternate Self on October 28, 2001 at 10:34:42: In Reply to: The life of me posted by Cory on October 28, 2001 at 02:03:13: Are you serious, your girlfriend is 3 months pregnate! Don't abort the child Cory, later on, you'll regret it, give it up for adoption at least, let the cat out of the bag if you have too, if the parents know, so the fuck what, let them deal with the fact that your an adult now. Your much more smarter than that, and worth more than you realize! Whatever you do, dooooon't do the abortion thing. I understand about pro shit, but really 3 months is too late. I know you may be sitting their saying why does this shithead care, but Cory...Think... Your capable of so much in life, and just because shes pregnate doesnt mean it will all end, especially if you give it up for adoption. Use your 5 wing and your 4 wing, inside you know that abortion is not for you. You have a higher mind use it!! It's time for you to realize that you don't have to be the addict to all this bullshit, maybe your depressed and need to get on anti depressants to set you a little more straight, I dunno, but one thing fer sure dude is, your capable of sooooo much, trust me!!!!
> I know you want to know about me. This is some sort of cheap prostitution. I am somewhat of a celebrity in your pathetic world. You devote yourself to this board because you have a useless life...like me. I am a celebrity to you; you are a celebrity to me. We both realize our lives our useless and purposeless and worthless. > This is why I apologize to everyone on here. > I am being sincere. Since Fall of '99 I have been here. This is probably the first time I've been sincere to the people on this board. I've always been a charlatan, or a prankster, or a jerk...but this time I am being honest to you. > If a person had a GOOD LIFE, would they spend it on here? I know I've been spending less hours on this board...but that's because I'm a sexaholic, pot addicted maniac, and an alcoholic...reminds me...I need my fix right now. I am an ADDICT to HEDONISM. Liz says I am really a closeted moralist, trying to prove a point. I don't know if she is right or not; all I know is I trust her deeply and I think she knows the True Me. I act as a leach onto her. It's strange that she thinks I'm a Five when I act so Fourish to her. She knows the real me. > I know I dissent from the enneagram from time to time. But that is my Six Wing talking. I truly am a Five. I believe it in my heart. Yes, the ultra-logical FIVE believes it in his HEART. I realize my questions about the enneagram are simply a misunderstanding. > Ok, look, if you're thinking "This is a bunch of bullshit" I admit I've had a bowl of pot, 5 bottles of Miller, and 2 shots of Jim Beam. ;) This shit may fuck me up in the long run, but at least it makes me honest in the present. > I am a Five. The Four and Six wing have battled to control me for a long time. The Four Wing represents my free, artistic, liberal nature while the Six Wing longs for security, rules, and simplicity. > Tonight I romance the counterwing Six and loot my city. Just the other night I threw three shrimp lo mein leftover dinners onto a Lexus SUV? > Why? > Diarmuid, maybe you know me as a Conservative, but I've changed into a liberal a long time ago. I understand the pain of the underclass and the worker first hand because I've lived as one for the past 3 years. > Life changed for me at 18. I was ushered out of my sheltered childhood into an adulthood of struggle, misery, but occasional fun. I haven't moved forward socially. I still work at the same job...the first and only job I've had...since October 30, 1998. > Maybe it's complacency. Maybe it's fear of the unknown. All I know is I am tied down and I know who I am. > My girlfriend has been pregnant for 3 months. We are planning on getting an abortion this week or the next. I remember Spring of 2000 ranting about being against abortion. But since then I've become to be Pro-Choice. And know that I have experienced this situation directly, I realize abortion is a better choice than to give a hard life to another human being. > Abortion is the more empathic choice; whether or not those Pro-Life freaks want to admit it. > I have a $60 a week habit for pot...I drink everyday.. > Down in the spiral I go. > Hey, the enneagram is right...5 to 7... > although I think the enneagram must be a bit more liberal. Riso says the descent to 7 is more so symbolic, in that the 5's mind heats up and goes crazy...No...I know differently. I literally become a semi-7 in that I cannot digest life, I become a consumer, and I addict myself to death. > That is all, for now... > -Cory
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