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Posted by Polly on December 24, 1998 at 14:58:24:
In Reply to: Re: Okay, so... posted by Dave on December 24, 1998 at 14:05:29:
> Hi Polly, > Lets take your example! What is so bad about misidentifying yourself? WHY is that a concern for you? WHAT is your motivation? > WHY are you doggedly pursuing this, and why don't you know how to proceed if you don't feel you're on firmer ground? > You're leaving clues in your writings. > Dave
hmmm... I'm wanting to pursue this because ... well, one, I have always been interested in theories of the self and of personality. Two, I find that I like structure in self-exploration (and other things, although though I seek structure, I also find that at times I chafe under it). Three, I consider having a fairly definite starting point crucial to further exploration and development (isn't that an underlying theory of applying any structure or system to understanding oneself? You have to narrow the universe to some extent to get a handle on it...or you can spend forever getting a hint of this and a hint of that (as I have done) and not having a satisfying sense of things. I recognize that one's personality or "self" is a moving target, to some extent, but I'm intrigued by having a quasi-fixed starting point. I also like being able to have somewhat of a complete picture, and though I resist ruling things out, it seems to me that that's the only way to get in depth a bit. I like clear direction, though I suppose I want to make it on my own terms...I do look to structures for some outside authority or insight, but I guess I think that by finding a system that makes sense to me I make the authority my own. Now, is that gibberish? I suppose, too, that at the point in time I'm currently approaching this (as I've said, I periodically start working on this) I am in a transition -- I'm leaving my current job and looking for a place that will better suit me, and at the same time, I'm trying to understand myself better so that I can figure out how best to approach this new job. If I can get at some typical patterns of mine or responses to things, I would think that I would be able to handle situations and weaknesses better in the future. Also, it's important to me to get at this because (a) knowledge is interesting and (b) it probably feeds my ego a bit to spend time focussing on "the fascinating complexity of me" (ha ha) and making cohesive sense of it. Another part of my doggedness is my knowledge that because I do go in and out of exploring these things, I would like for once to get a little deeper into it before I get caught up in other things. That's my personal interest. As a more general matter, I like knowing what makes people tick.
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