Posted by Dave on June 27, 1999 at 23:27:22:
In Reply to: Re: Does dysfunction mask type? posted by PseudoName on June 27, 1999 at 20:52:06:
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> In sum, I feel as if I have lost myself.
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How did you feel when you weren't lost? How does that compare to this lost feel?
Everything that I have fought for, everything that I have done to make myself stronger over my conscious lifetime, has been lost.
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Everything? I mean, do you mean everything? There's not one thing or resource, experience, feeling, philosophy, achievement, or anything that you still don't possess?
I do not like what I see emerging, .............
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What does that look like to you? How do you know you don't like it? hOW does it differ from a scene you would like to see emerge?
and I hope, quite frankly, that it's a phase and not who I am.
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Does this emergence reveal your identity, who you are? Is it a part of you? all of you? How does it differ from who you feel and see yourself to be at present and past?
I see a much weaker person.
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Weaker in what way?
Is it: Weaker or vulnerable? Weaker or more confused? Weaker or more overwhelmed?
You have no idea, how hard that is for me to admit. Even under a fake name, in a totally anonymous medium.
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No, I don't, but you have shown a great deal of courage in taking a step for asking for help. What part of you is willing to act this courageous? Are you confusing your courage for weakness?
Best,
Dave