Re: So, okay, I was a touch melodramatic... Re: PsuedoName

Posted by Hal on June 28, 1999 at 16:56:26:

In Reply to: So, okay, I was a touch melodramatic... Re: PsuedoName posted by PseudoName on June 28, 1999 at 01:31:54:

> Does it reveal my identity? All emergence, by definition, reveals some part of identity, whether transient or permanent, I'm not qualified to say. A part of me, not all of me. Both more complex and more vulnerable. Less able to protect myself because I see more of other people's pain. I have developed a conscience, rather late in life.

It reveals your identity, but it is not your identity. Your pain and feelings are things you experience, but they are not your self.

> Courage is not strength. Screw courage. You can't be courageous unless you're fighting fear. I'm sick of fear, and I'm not courageous, I'm tired of not having any resources to bounce back. I would be... more internally resourceful. I want to be sure of my world again. There you go. That's pretty much all of it. This is ALL weakness. If I were stronger, I wouldnt need to be here. I realize I sound pathetic, however... hmmm. Put away the kitchen knives. LOL.

If you're tired of fighting fear, don't fight it. Just let it go.

- Hal -

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